Jamie Foxx and The BET Coonery Awards

What a hot mess. I can't believe that we actually support this channel! Well at 2:07am this morning, i finally said, NO MORE! I won't take anymore crap from this so called 'black entertainment channell. I can't believe that instead of just honoring Michael, they put together the best coonery show in the history of the world. They will go down in History as the worst channel for black folks, and 2009, this year, will go down in History as the year that they lost all hope of having a real awards show. I am going on a month long internet campaign. Don't watch BET until they do something about their programming. This channel should be BANNED! They just set all people of color back 150 years. Is this what our leaders work hard for? For us to perpetuate this stereotypical crap?I am SO done with the channel. Never watching again. Ever. Not even when they run my favorite black people movies. I want the channel blocked from my home.

Not only do I want the channel blocked but I am telling them how I feel! please write to BET at contactus@bet.com and let them know that their programming SUCKS, and that they are making a mockery of everything important in the black culture. I am upset they are allowed to exist!

Live Your Life Off The Wall

after being sullen and sad and teary all evening, i am finally able to write about michael jackson. off the wall is still my life theme song. i get wild everytime i hear this song. it has reminded me from almost the day i was born of what type of life i should live. the song reminded me that i should work hard, and play hard. it reminded me that it was ok to be young and free and to do what i wanted to do. it reminded me not to follow the rules but to make the rules and set my course. i can remember dancing around my livingroom at 6 years old to this song, and just knowing that when i grew up, that i would live life, how i wanted to live it. and thanks to my theme song to constantly remind me, my life has been an amazing off the wall, out of the ordinary experience. thanks michael. i applaud you. i stand in awe of how amazingly you were created. i am floored by your continuous musical magesticness. you helped me to remember to never put myself on the shelf, and never forget about my dreams. thank you for being your amazing, eccentric, artistic, big open-hearted self.

I LOVE YOU MICHAEL JACKSON.

many many tears for my michael.

He's been on my mind

so. i would not have thought six months ago, after being madly in love with one man, and having my heart smattered all up and down north east corridor that i could ever feel anything for another man. but here i am feeling so much. i have to keep myself from letting him know how i feel, because he is not good for me. he is like the caution tape surrounding an accident at the scene of a crime. you know you are bound to see something bad if you cross the line, but you don't know how long you can keep yourself from finding out what is back there. there is some sort of allure that lies there that you can't take your mind away from.

i often get into these stages where i want no other man, i see no other man, and i think about no other man. here i am again. i konw for sure at least i was meant to be manogamous. i know it. i just have to find the right one who wants to be manogamous with me. with this particular man, i am not sure how manogamous he wants to be. and with that uncertainty, i cannot open that door. i cannot set myself up for a heart break that is surely sitting right beyond a few steamy lust filled sessions of passion and mind tricks and flirtation. the chase. the chase. the chase. the run. the catch. and then what? it is this phase that i am most afriad of.

i am afraid i will be alone forever, though i am most afraid of being alone forever, i am most afraid of being with someone and still being alone forever. oh, the damnation of being human. i should have been born a dog. this would have been much easier.

Funeral Procession

5-1 Lakers for their 15th title. Orlando will live on in my heart, but the show is over. Bohemian Rhapsody comes to mind. 'nothing really matters, anyone can see, nothing really matters....nothing really matters, toooo meeeee....' Now that my boys have one their first game in a championship, I can go back to being sports oblivious til football starts. Go Cowboys.

I Keep Meeting Winners.

so. i have decided to be open to new relationships and see what comes my way. after my last ridiculous boyfriend, i am determined. i want something nice. i would like to be a part of a fruitful relationship. not some sort of ridiculous circus freak show, as the last one was.

so over the past few months i have met a series of men some of them nice, some of them interesting. but the common thread in them all is that they are missing whatever that thing is that i need.

and then i stop myself and think, am i being to picky? am i looking for something that does not exist? am i really being that open?

i have dated men in and out of religious boundaries. the only difference that i perceive is at what point the sex comes in. i have been told that i am a sexy creature, so this always presents itself as a problem. for men with no religious affiliation, the sex comes up very quickly. are we having it? not necessarily, but they want to know what they can get relatively quickly. with religious men, they put up a good fight for a while, but if i am not whipping the reigns of self restraint, and guiding the chariot, we end up going too far off course sooner or later.

so anyway. i have figured out that because i am sexy, and overtly so, i want a man to see past all the sexiness and want to be my friend and companion. i won't stop til i find it. all others will fall short and will go on the f list. F- for friend, of course. am i open closed? or what? i don't know.

Religious Pompousness

I can't stand it. I won't let it go unchecked. In the least I will make you upset for the evening.

A recent twitter convo:

Jason Avant: is wondering why would anyone want 2 leave the truth 4 something like the Charismatic church? Seriously guys! Stay true & authentic!

Jason Avant: Fame is their price. What I have is not for sale. "Buy the truth and sell it not!" I am Apostolic w/o Apology and I'm "Not For Sale" ......

Queen Kaye: @JasonAvant i'm for sale. sold out to the One though!

Queen Kaye: @JasonAvant you tread dangerous ground when u criticize others way of believing in God. there are many attacks on apostolic legalism.

Queen Kaye: @JasonAvant so you should be much more conscious and act in the way Jesus did when dealing with religion.

Queen Kaye: @JasonAvant there is there for now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.

Queen Kaye: @JasonAvant For the Law of the Spirit of LOVE (not legalism) in Christ Jesus has set you free from the law of sin and death.

Queen Kaye: @JasonAvant none else can achieve that freedom cept christ's LOVE that calls people to him not legalism and religious pompousness

Jason Avant: I am now going to disconnect myself from you ... I understand your not in the UPC but I will not tolerate your comments either.

Queen Kaye: Exactly! If someone does not believe they way you believe, you cut yourself off from them. I will be praying for you!

I know I made him mad, but he started it. If he can't take it, then he shouldn't dish it!

#deathto legalistic, chauvinistic, religious pompous whole asses, who think they can invoke their watered down version of Jesus and the bible on everyone. I will be praying for him, but i will tell his ass off too!

Superman that...YOUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!! (Dwight Howard)

Even though tonight was approaching EPIC FAIL status, (75-100 Lakers) I love the Magic. I am an old time fan. However, this man right here!? He is gonna win it big for the O!!!!!!!

I can't wait til Sunday.

Them (F)akers better watch their back in the Sunshine State!! It's ON AND POPPIN!!!!!! Do it big for your predecessors!Go get em' Superman!

NO H8

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A date with no hate:

A Detroit Tale

I spent mother's day weekend (which turned into a week) in Detroit with some friends. I had the most marvelous time. I was anxious to see this city which was being highlighted in the news every few seconds because of how bad the economy was there. While there was a lot of carnage from the closing of the auto plants, and worker being laid off by the thousands, there was still so much to appreciate about the one and only city of Detroit, the history, the generations represented in Janet's family, and having family and friends to be with during times like these. It was nice to be with my friend, her children, and her family celebrating mother's day. They just made the seriousness of it all not as bad as it could have been. It was a beautiful time! I hope that other families in Detroit are able to focus in on their own family members during hard times like these. There is a bit of relief in the love of family.

This video is of Aamir, Janet's son. He heard this song that week week, and he danced to it every time it came on. He was so happy to be around his family and it really came out every time music came on . He was enjoying himself immensely. Of everyone I think he enjoyed himself the most on this trip.

Do me a favor...Call me Jerk One more time...(New Boyz- you're a jerk): The Jerkin Craze

I love these boys. I can't get enough of them. I think this video does two things. It reminds me of how cool I once was (though i could never dance). It also reminds me of how much self expression and creativity is still worth in our culture. New Boyz are a great reason to keep the fine arts in te public school, keep teaching kids about poetry and literature , fund music programs and a host of other things. I am impressed with them because as the story goes, they were able to realize that they had something special on their hands, and recorded this song while on punishment and amidst disapproval from their parents. Of course the parents are quite excited about their new fame.

Also, the new cultural phenomenon of Jerking is quite awesome. I don't think it is a cute dance, it looks quite crazy...however, that these youth have made this an important part of their existence is impressive to me. They are able to create, and that is always impressive. This is yet another example of how knowledge is produced in different forms and settings. They have added to the field of cultural expression through dance and have created something relatively phenomenalogical. Someone should write a dissertation on the jerking movement. Enjoy these videos on the phenomenon.

New Boyz- You're a Jerk


The best jerking, from BB the Jerk!