Making time to talk about me.

So I am making time to write each morning, so expect a lot more blogging from me! I don't know if folks will ever read this, and that is what discourages me sometimes. My blogs don't follow any conventional wisdom or have any theme...they just are. They are what ever they are that day. I hope that which ever one person is reading, will take away something.

This week has been rather interesting. I have gotten back on a schedule. This has made my life extremely easy, even though keeping and sticking to a schedule is very difficult! From the time that I get up in the morning til about 5:30, I am working and organizing and getting my life together. I love being in charge of my own schedule. It gives me a certain sense of purpose. But I think it is rather funny that 'my own schedule' mimics very much what my schedule looked like when I was a part of the professional world. It seems that no matter what I do, the man has his foot on my neck, from about 9am to 5pm. But one thing I am making sure of for sure. I am going to make time to sleep, enjoy life, and look for love, and let love find me.

I also like that keeping a schedule gives me time to think about what I want to think about! There is so much freedom in thinking, dreaming, and imaging. I love having the time, to imagine what I think life should be like, and I love to write about that. Right now even, I am imagining me keeping this schedule for the rest of this week, and next, and getting so much work done! I see myself finishing my papers on time, and not getting stressed out this end-of-the semester, and I see myself on that cruise come december worry free. I see myself managing my stress and not getting too many more gray hairs.

I imagine myself making time for my music in the future too. I have so many dreams about that, that i am still so shy and afraid to dream. But I will get there...I am not going to stop dreaming. it's how I got here in the first place.